I am become The Hulk; anger personified, less green
I would never deny being a pretty lousy husband and an even worse dad. Partially because of my ADD, but also because when I get angry I say stupid things, things no one should have to hear, least of all children.
I can’t really help myself when I lose my temper, even though I know it’s on me to change. While I don’t turn green, the anger wants out some way or another, and unfortunately for the people around me (my immediate family, mostly), it is often on them I am unloading my garbage.
In a meeting with kindergarten the other week they had an “oh by the way” which involved Agnes swearing a noticeable lot lately, which I apologised for, taking the blame. Gotta give credit to her though; she has a pretty good grasp of the grammar and where to insert the “power words”. It’s impressive, but oh so wrong.
On top of last years ADD diagnosis I’ve asked for CBT, to try find better “tools” to help keep a level head. It was meant to start in August, but because of Covid it’s been delayed until who knows when.
If it doesn’t work then maybe proper anger management (which include CBT anyways) is the next step. Whenever that’d be. Who knows anymore? Feels like there’s more than a year between each step I take. ๐คทโโ๏ธ Fcking mental health. Fcking Covid..
By the way, 1999 called. They wanted their animated gifs back.. ๐
See you around!
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